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Kim ([personal profile] highdreams) wrote2010-07-12 12:49 am

And the good girls are home with broken hearts.

My daddy said it right after the semi-finals; “don’t be glad that we’re in the final, it is absolute torture and the heartbreak when losing will be enormous.” I laughed and said he was crazy. But the man was right. My parents have been through three world cup finals. The first one in ’74, when we lost against Germany, the second time in ’78 against Argentina. And now for the third time. Spain was simply the better team. I can admit that.

But it was torture. The entire match. The suspense and tension I experienced in these 120 minutes is something I never want to experience again. I cried, I screamed, but most off all I was scared to death.

So when Spain made the 1-0 I was like: PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF, I don’t even care anymore, I’m just SO glad it’s OVER. I didn’t watch the last few minutes; I went outside and sat all alone on the street and stared at the stars while the tears streamed down my face. Tears of sadness but also tears of pure relief. I got hugged by complete strangers. From far away I could hear fireworks and cars honking; probably the Spanish community who expressed their joy.

I’m sad we lost. But I’m glad it’s over. And with pain in my heart, but completely deserved, I say; Congratulations Spain. You did well.

I’m off to cry some more. In my orange shirt. Because I am still proud of my boys.


[identity profile] czarinia.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
I almost had a heart attack a few times... But, hey! While the loss was hard, it was still awesome seeing them play through the whole thing

c'mere bb /hugs

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 12:58 pm (UTC)(link)
The day after is even worse than last night, lol. I'm so hungover and I didn't even drink that much.

But you're right. I'm trying to be happy that we made it to the final and second place is still an outstanding result. But it's hard.

Thank you for your support though. I really appreciate your positive words. *hugs*

[identity profile] goldenskies.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 11:08 pm (UTC)(link)
As a Spanish fan I can relate to the second paragraph. I kept having heart attacks and freaking out whenever one of Netherlands' players got close to the goal.

Holland had an amazing tournament and based on how they played over all they deserved to win just as much as we did, except maybe for the game today.

I'm going to miss the World Cup (what will I do with myself now?) but I feel like I've aged by a decade and I'm glad it's over.

I'm sorry, especially since you're one of the classiest Dutch fans I've seen today. I know I'd be a complete mess if we had lost and you have every right to be bitter or upset. <333

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:13 pm (UTC)(link)
It was agony, wasn't it? D: Not at all the match I'd hoped for. And such stupid decisions made on our team. 9 yellow cards. In a final. That's just stupid. Not all of these were completely deserved (I'm -secretly- on Team FUCKYOUREF, lol) but stupid nonetheless. That's why I am upset; we didn't show what we are capable off and fucked it up by getting all these cards. >:|

I'm sorry, especially since you're one of the classiest Dutch fans I've seen today. I know I'd be a complete mess if we had lost and you have every right to be bitter or upset. <333

I read this right before I went to sleep and it made me sob. Thank you, I really appreciate you saying that. <3 I'm trying to be a good loser, but it is hard. Especially today; I feel like I got hit by a train or something. Everything hurts and my eyes are swollen. I look like a monster :P

I hope you got to celebrate, though! :D

[identity profile] idmv84.livejournal.com 2010-07-11 11:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I admire you for being able to watch most of it (I couldn't stand watching the game and watched and did other stuff while glancing at it from time to time) and I kinda share your feelings.
We can be incredibly proud of our Dutch team; world's second best is pretty dang good. However, it really does blow we lost... it makes me sad too. But yeah, congratulations to Spain for the deserved win. Hope you'll feel less sad soon xoxo

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
(((HUGS))) Thank you, bb <3

Everytime Spain had the ball, I watched through my fingers. It was AGONY. My house was full of family and friends, so I didn't have a place to escape to. If I had, I think I'd have done the same as you did.

World's second best sounds good on paper, but is only a small consolation, lol.


[identity profile] egotists.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
They still got second place bb. :)
There's something to be said for that.

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:20 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs you* Thank you. ♥ My brain knows it. Now it's only a matter before my heart believes that.

[identity profile] shalowater.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 12:07 am (UTC)(link)
aww bb. *hugs you*

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you for the hugs, hon <3 (((HUGS TIGHT)))

[identity profile] carameltrap.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Your dad is a very wise man. I know how heartbreaking it is to be so close and came away with nothing. Second place is consolation at this point.

But well done to the team for making it and for playing well. *hugs*

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't let him hear that - he'll glow ;)

Thank you, Lavinia. While I'm still incredibly sad, the comments of support here and elsewhere are really doing wonders for my mood. *hugs you*

[identity profile] neednotwant.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
awww bb. <3333 i don't watch soccer at all but everyone was watching the finals and the local channel was screening it so i watched it in bed and OMG it was so intense I just kept wanting it to be over.

Love at those strangers giving you hugs, tho.

*squishes* ilu.

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
ILU too. ♥ ((HUGS YOU))

IT WAS SO INTENSE. My whole house was full of Oranje (Holland) supporters (obviously) and when Spain made the goal everyone was upset and screaming. And then I said something like: THANK GOD, IT'S OVER and ran outside and they got mad at me. "How can you SAY that?! We fucking lost!" I was just so relieved it was over, even if it meant we lost. I couldn't stand another minute of this.

Love at those strangers giving you hugs, tho.

Me too. =) It really made me smile through my tears. <3

[identity profile] princess-narnia.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry about the match last night, honey. I was rooting for the Dutchies to win. With my boys (Germany) out of the finals I was really hoping the Dutch would claim the cup.

The match was just nuts. The ref handing out so many cards? I've never seen anything like it before. Your boys put up a hell of a fight and I would love to say a bunch of things as to why the other side won-coz it still ticks me off that they did.

*huggles you* Hang in there, love. Your boys were superb and they played like gents.

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Pash. I so appreciate your comment <3

Ah, the Germans. How I wish we could have played against them. <3 They were, imo, the best team of this tournament. Even better than us, tbh.

The cards made me rage. Some were deserved (De Jong and his kick could and maybe should have been a red card), others were completely unfair. But there's nothing that can be done about it. It does leave a bitter taste in my mouth, though.

I could kiss you for saying Your boys were superb and they played like gents - it makes me sad to see almost the whole world saying that we played so dirty. There's a truth in that, but Spain wasn't completely innocent as well. It was, like you said, a nuts match. Both teams felt the pressure and tension and some boys didn't really handle that well.

*hugs you tight*

[identity profile] salmiaggi.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 08:47 am (UTC)(link)

The match was absolutely horrible. And I was supporting both teams (neither of which are my actual national team), so I can't even imagine how it must have been like for you.

But you should be proud. Because even if they didn't win, the boys did good. <3

[identity profile] highdreams.livejournal.com 2010-07-12 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
(((HUGS YOU)))

I seriously love my flist. Even my Spanish supporters flisters are so sweet to me, I could cry. I'm still sad, but your comment has lifted my spirit, bb. <3

Thank you. I ~am proud of my boys. The boys will go to Amsterdam tomorrow where there will be thousands of people to welcome them back home. I'm looking forward to that. We may not have won, but what they did for the country and the people here is incredible. For that I am proud.